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The past few days have been iffy. Still no contact from mom, it makes me a little nervous. Oh well, nothing I can really do there.

I'll also be contributing to a new blog. It's here: Click Me!

I think that's really it for now. Later.

That's Your Horoscope for Today

A little humor for the day. Anyway, about my facebook horoscope.

I have a feeling mom will be  calling tonight. But it's also telling me I'll do well... right?

...Man the battlestations! Load the cannons! Prepare for an attack! And find me some green, damn it!

*sigh* I'm such a child

I'm wearing three necklaces to bed. Three.

One is the purple heart on the string Vera gave me.

One is the other half of V's birthday present: A little pink robot charm along with a little charm that says "best. Vera has a similar necklace, with a blue robot that says "friends".

[Side note: I always get the pink ones. My one from when  I was still Ayame's friend is a pink mushroom that says "friends".]

And the last necklace is my father's Italian horn[apparently also known as a corno] that I lost but recently found. The horn is mostly used as protection for men, but dad would always give it to me when I was going to visit with mom, and I've never even gotten hurt any time I've worn it, so maybe fatherly love makes it extend?

Irony: Dad isn't even Italian, yet he believes in a bunch of Italian protective symbols. He wants to get necklaces for both of us of the mano cornuta necklaces with the evil eye on them. It makes me smile a little.

References for the different symbols here: Click Me!

Anyway, back to why I'm being childish, I just watched a friend go through something difficult, and I'm also dealing with my mom issues. I need three necklaces and sleep with a shit ton of stuffed animals for comfort. So yeah, I feel like I'm being kinda stupid.

Give Up

Maybe, just maybe.

It's funny. Even when I start a day off in a good mood, it never lasts. The people I talk to know just how to ruin it.

Sometimes I think it would be easier not to have friends. To be able to curl up on my side, lie down, and die. Be done with this. I'm usually not so confrontational. Usually I'll lie down and accept things and cry myself to sleep over them. Yeah, I'm an overly-dramatic bitch. Just one of my many negative qualities.

What I really do like about this blog, is I'm fairly certain none of you read it unless I tell you there's a new post up. Which I generally only will if it's a happy post. why would anyone want to read about my feelings, right? But no masks here, just me.

Lonely me. Sad me. Depressed me. I know how to taint things just as well as the people I know do.

You know, I can't -stand- other people like me. I hate other people who are depressed and angsty. And I just want to hit them because I take one look at why they're upset and I think they're idiots.

I know I'm an idiot, but I think I'm just used to myself. Than again, I'm not my own biggest fan either.

I'm a little happy over something I shouldn't be. Well, a couple things I shouldn't be. But I'm not going to share, for the simple fact that one of you might read this for once. Though I doubt it. why should any of you take time out of your lives for me?

Urgh, I talk like I have a crowd like EIS here.

I miss my friends from Everything I See... Not that they were real friends, and it's not like the blog was any good, but I still miss them.

I'm a shitty friend. Can't keep in touch with anyone but Vera. I'm a shitty sister and daughter too, but I don't want to get into that.

Sometimes I wish Floppy was as far as my friend circle extended. Well, Floppy and the others. They were good, loyal friends who didn't talk back but I always felt that maybe, just maybe, they were listening.

God I'm such a depressing little bitch...

43 and 44

Ahhhh, watching slender videos late at night. The choice of the wise. xP

Yeah, that's about it. No word from mom.

Sector 7 and the real world

3 S7 black Chevy suburban type cars passed me yesterday while walking to Vera's, it was awesome.

Verdict came in on the mom case. I have to see her for 2 weeks, dad has to drive me up there, and she gets half my graduation tickets. Fuck my life.

That is all.

Dear Primus

Transformers 3 was A-FUCKING-MAZING

Thank you very much sir for letting me have a wonderful time with Vera. That made my summer.

That movie blew my mind. The 3D was TOTALLY worth it.

OMG can't give spoilers though.

I LOVED IT SOOOOOOO.

And we saw a 'Bee camero while leaving. It was a good day. =DDDDD