I'm starting over. I just feel the need to. I just went through a big event in my life. No, I'm not going into detail. It involves a lot of hurt on my part, some stupidity on what I believe to both sides, and I'm working very hard to work on my mood.
Anyway, the person who hurt me is forgiven 110% I'd still be friends with them if they were willing to try. At my age I hold far too many grudges. So, I need to learn lessons from... Well, I wouldn't call him a mistake. I enjoyed the relationship and talks we had while it lasted. It had a bad ending on both ends. But hey, not every goodbye can be said with a smile, a hug, and the lingering chance that you'll meet as friends again. It just doesn't work that way.
Anyway... I wish that person the best of luck. I hope he finds happiness and love and an ending he can appreciate. And as for me, I'm going to have to just take from this what I can, use my sick sense of humor to make me smile, and try to stop regretting something I can't change.
So more about me, eh? My psyche, my attitude, my interests. Not like anyone will be reading this anyway, but anyone who does(Particularly Adrian and Vera I'm going to assume and will most likely be correct)... Well, they deserve to know what they are walking into.
Let me start with how my last five days have been. The first 3 of those were spent in nearly unbearable abdominal cramps. They also involved friends fighting and the events that lead to my complete blog wipe out. Saturday involved a new hair do and lightheaded ness/ headaches/ stomach aches all day. And I was happy most of yesterday. I was happy until the end of the day. Today I've set a record for compliments due to my hair cut. So, all in all, a pretty good day.
My friends Raven and Neko are in the middle of a large match of "she said, she said". They probably will not be making up soon. I don't really feel like going into it, but I am on Neko's side.
You see, a few months back, a "guy" named on here "Crow" started texting me through Raven's cellphone. He was conveniently grounded and was hanging around Raven's house a lot. But I could never go over and he never got ungrounded. I eventually came to the logical conclusion that hie is, in fact, fake. So yeah. My history with guys has lead me to the conclusion that "All the good ones are either taken or gay".
Life works for me that way. I've never really had anyone close to me really stick around. My dad, my stepmom, my stepsister and Ver are really the only ones. Hopefully I'm gonna be counting Adrian on that list soon as well. I hope so, for Vera's sake. And I really don't want to have to kill him. Because if he breaks Vera's heart, I will break his face <3
Moving on from threats I will hopefully never have to carry out. I am a huge fan of NCIS. I prefer the original over LA. I saw Borderlands, Patriot Down, and Rule 51 today. All of the above made me cry like a baby. I am a huge fan of Gibbs, Abby, and Franks. Hell, who am I kidding, I utterly adore the entire crew. They just have this magnetic charm to them that I can not ignore.
I am also a huge fan of the Transformers Series. I have watched a bit of Prime, but it hasn't managed to keep my interest. I love the live action movies, and was admittedly sad to see Meagan Fox leave her position as heroine, but what can I do? Besides, she was the dumbass who called her director a Nazi. We'll see how the new chick fares.
I also love Pirates of the Caribbean. Moving on to music, I really like I Fight Dragons, Skillet, My Chemical Romance, Green Day, Linking Park, Bruno Mars, Evanessence, anything Little Kuriboh makes, and Sam Tsui's music.
As far as internet things go, I go on Gaia. I also am very into the Slender Man mythos, although I'm starting to fall out of that a lot.
I'm an artist. I love to write, and I enjoy drawing.
I dunno. I believe that is enough of an introduction.
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